So I hand in my resignation letter to leave for another job today. Newsflash! I cried in front of my boss with no shame at all. I love my job regardless of the exuberant amount of complaints I made throughout my time there. My boss got a bit emotional from all of the tears I shed. Part of me feel sorry that I have to leave now since the company is currently experiencing major workload and my colleague will be away for her maternity leave soon too. However, part of me really wanted to take up this opportunity and get out from my comfort zone. This mixed feeling I have is really hard to be dealt with.
I never knew that I will have a strong emotion towards this company to the extent I cried my eyeballs out for three days straight. I KID YOU NOT! I even cried when I typed down my resignation letter so you can probably imagine how much I cried upon handing in my letter. It’s like someone had opened the floodgate and nothing is there to control the strong current.
Maybe I see my boss as a father figure and of course, it hurts me badly to leave since I feel like I’m letting him down. Never in a million year, I want to let him down, anyone as a matter of fact although I can sometimes be a disappointment when I don’t focus that much at work especially when I’m always on my phone. People may see this as an act of exaggeration but I am one emotional little human and I keep people close to my heart so this really hit home. However, I know this had been written to happen to me so I will take this as part of the bittersweet of life and move on with nothing but positivity.
All the experience I gained, the bond and memories I created during my time there will be treasured forever. They will always be with me wherever I go. Thank you so much for taking me in when no else want me. I am forever in debt.
Monday with 4,123 notes / reblog
Been smiling and laughing a lot but Im still depressed. I am trying so hard to be happy with myself and possibly had tried everything in my power to look for one but here I am still lost in my own world. When will this feeling fade? I cant possibly continue feeling this down and shattered.
Day 1: One day at a time
Starting this new blog post series just to check up on my mental health while dealing with the workload back at the office. I just want to be okay up in the brain department so I won’t feel all wear down with the stress that may lead to depression since I can get a little hard on myself and become super obsessed with work. The CNY is almost over and I’m heading back to work and I can feel my body is crashing the wall today since I’ve been working all day long during the holiday since I was a bit overwhelmed with the work that I have to sort out. The amount of love I have for my job is worrying me, in the last few weeks I’ve been doing work night and day and to be honest, a part of me is enjoying it and the remains hate it since I have this idea to balance between work and life but I don’t know how. Nonetheless, I’m not gonna let this feeling or anxiety get in the way and mess around with my productivity. I will try to fight this through, I know I can change. I just need to get some changes in one day at a time.
